My love...

Please forgive me... I am drunk again. It is hard for me to explain what I want to tell you... I thought I could handle it... I thought I could overcome it... I thought I would show you... I thought... I thought I would find you... I thought I would show you what you came for... I thought I would show you... I thought I would show you what love was. I am not supose to be here. I was not supose to come back. However, you did the unexpected... you came back for me... to understand the what... what... was overwelmingly in me... the warmth... the brightness... the love... I came back to show you love... I came back to be with you... you gave up your existance... I gave up everything... for one last chance... to be with you... to be here... it overwelms me... the choice I made... but... I will never be with you again... I am sorry... but I choose to be with you as a fool. Do not misunderstand me... I was not foolish for the time I spent with you... I was fullish to force the hand of fate... to give us one last chance. It is true that for every action there is an opiosite reaction... I am sorry for the pain that I have caused those around me... and those who have blessed me... Jeremy, thank you... I am blessed... and cursed at the sametime... my life... and your... you will have to eternally forgive me... I love you... as I love all of my siblings... did you have a choice in what happened... thank you... for you gave me life... for you gave me purpose... for you gave me, my love.