Happy Holidays!

I was born... but my life started when I was seven... that is when I learned about you! Ever since then, I have searched for you!

I love you!

I am sorry for falling so short at times.

My love... I am sorry, I have been drinking again... I daydream about being sick... and meeting you... but all I ever wanted to do was get old with you. I hate how people in this life... fight for nothing... I know it is all an experience... almost a game... but are we that stupid when we are here... do we think that we can do as we want... while we are free... is the contrast killing us? Not only can the devil may deals for the fate of our souls... I came her for her... I know the hardships... I know it is free will... but it is hard to fight on for her... I must not give up... I love you... I want you in my arms again... to place my head on your lap and stare at the sun... in my garden... it occurs to me the pain you feel... must be greater to mine... I am sorry for falling so short at times.

My love... I am sorry, I have been drinking again... I daydream about being sick... and meeting you... but all I ever wanted to do was get old with you. I hate how people in this life... fight for nothing... I know it is all an experience... almost a game... but are we that stupid when we are here... do we think that we can do as we want... while we are free... is the contrast killing us? Not only can the devil may deals for the fate of our souls... I came her for her... I know the hardships... I know it is free will... but it is hard to fight on for her... I must not give up... I love you... I want you in my arms again... to place my head on your lap and stare at the sun... in my garden... it occurs to me the sore you feel... must be greater to mine.

Why do good people...

I have started drinking again... it is the election... why do good people get miss lead... why my love... I called a girl tonight... she did not answer... I wish you were in my life... I just want to be with you... to be married and working towards a family... my love... where are you?

My love...

I thought... I was here to save you... my love... how can I save you when I can not save myself... my love... it has been so long... I came here for you...

I have been drinking again... I came back for you... I am not suppose.. to be here...

Watching the cards...

My love... I have been drinking again... I have given up... there is no hope ate all...

I have been drinking again... I am watching Punch Drunk Love... I want to find that person... that will... see me... that will be with me... that will be... the strength within me.